feeling pissed today
mad because i got into it with
this bitch on instagram
and it pains me to even say thatand i’m
even more mad that
this can affect my whole day
UGHHHHHHHH
how many times do i have to
vow not to get into it with
people on the internet and
i really want to sit here and bash
her and talka bout
about t
all the things she did wrong or bad
or how she is WRONG and i am
RIGHT but deep down i know it’s my own
fault for trying to say something
for speaking up
and then i’m like no fuck that
i should speak out when i see something
that i think is wrong
and not just never say anything
because you have to be afraid that
any time you
disagree with someone that
they are going to
launch a character assassination on you
because i do believe i was right.
she keeps bashing any type of
spiritual path and the comment i made
was to inform her that
her brand of oppression is
just as boring as the rest
and ugh i don’t even want to get
into it but i can’t help it
but when i think about it makes
me so mad and i don’t want to be mad
and i don’t want
to waste
any more energy on it
but then she calls in her friends for backup
and publicly posts something to bash me
and it’s like really?
you had to do all that?
you couldn’t just disagree?
and ugh yes i want to bash
her and i know it’s only me and
that’s what i came here to talk about
because it’s fucked up
but i don’t want to be mad
and i know i don’t have
to care and
in the end
i apologized
which i only feel halfway good about
because half of me is glad i did that
and didn’t go any deeper into what was becoming
a fucked up conversation
ugh and then
i keep thinking
to myself i can’t stop
thinking about it
and i know i can
i know i can i know i can
and i made the choice
that i would that i would pay attention to
my thoughts and you know
all i can say is i love you im
i’m sorry please forgive me thank you
i love you i’m sorry please forgive me thank you
and no matter far
how far i stray from center
into the
confusion of a fear based world
confrontation
based world
i can always come back to that
and i can accept responsibility
for instigating it
and i can take responsibility
for being condescending in the first place
i was. i admit that.
i admit that and i know it’s
my fault and that i didn’t have to go
about it in that way
and i accept responsbility
for that
and i know the main reason i am mad is
because i am mad
at myself for doing that
and now i’m feeling better
i’m feeling better because i
came here to be honest with
myself and work through it
and i’m proud of myself for
that i am allowing myself to be proud of myself for that
iknow my power
is in my choosing not to
care either way
and knowing that it
it doesn’t affect me i know it
doesn’t affect me i know it
doesn’t affect me i know
it oesn’t
doesn’t have to affect me and i know
that i can always say i
i love you i’m sorry please forgive me thank you
i know
i can always say i love you i ‘m
sorry
sorry please forgive me thank you and i can
always come back to
i liove you
i love you i’m sorry please forgive me
thank you i love you ‘m so
i’m sorry please r
forgive me thank you i love you
i’m sorry please forgive me
thank you i love you
i’m sorry please forgive me thank you
thank you thank you thank you for this
here and now here and now here and now
here and now here and now
and that
the skills
the POWER
TO KNOW WHO I AM AND SAY
FUCK THE REST FUCK THE BULLSHIT
FUCK THE HATERS FUCK THE HATERS
YOU WILL NEVER GET THROUGH
TO THE HATERS FOCUS ON YOU
ON YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH
YOURSELF
because you can’t tell notbo
noboby nothing
nobody nothing
i love you i’m sorry
please forgive me thank you
i’m grateful to know who i am
i’m
grateful to know who i am
i’m grateful to knowwh
who i am and know the power
of to stand up for what i know
sit h
is thr tr
the truth and let go of the
rest i love that i know who i am
i love that i know who i am
i love
that i know who
who i am and that
it can only reflect me i know
i know that life is just a print
out i know that life
is just
a print out and i accept that
i accept responsibility for the
version i create and i know
that i can always create
a different one a
i love that i know this
and i love that the contrast
helps me focus i know this is just
life giving me what i want
an opportunity to focus
to train my attention and
sometimes only contrast helps me focus
and i asked for hlep
help training my attentoin
be
being aware of what i an
giving my attentoin and how it is making
me feel and then making the choice
to become a match to some
to something else if that
feels bad
if that feels bad
look for something else
and i lov tat
that life helps me
i lov t
that i asked and it was given
and i can celebrate that life is always
giving me what i ask for and i can
say
i love you i’m sorry please forgive me thank you