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felt an inkling lately
of the world beyond
i’ve been feeling more aware of
the veil of the
fear i hide behind even though i’m
still unsure what i am
afraid of but i gather
that it’s just a sense of overall anxiety
that comes about as a result
of separation from source and when i am
fully connected to source i
don’t feel that sense of anxiety
because when i am connected
i feel a knowing sense of
being cared for and

taken
care of

and i’ve been feeling
the beyond lately
and it feels good today

when i woke up i felt excited about
the day excited about knowing that it
always turns out perfect
excited just from
making the choice

from being aware of how something
makes me fee and

addressing it

and i can feel that i’ve
had the headspace to do more of that lately
to be aware of my thoughts
feelings and emotions i am aware of what i think
and how that makes me feel
and i am aware of the choice i get to make
and that it always just comes back to love

and when i focus on love
i feel at ease and when i feel at ease
the truth of life
is allowed

to tell itself
to me

the truth of life
is that everything is love

love of myself
and henceforth
love from myself

unto myself

it feels good to feel
relaxed to be in the habit of looking for it

because i know i can choose
to be in the habit of looking for whatever
i wish to see i am in the habit of looking for what
i want to see and i know i

always
see
it

it feels good to be aware of
the thoguth
thought patterns to be aware of

who

and

what

i am

it feels good to know and to
be in the practice of coming
back to center it feels good

to take actions that
feel good to do the things
that i know
feel good it feels good to focus
onthings that

feel good and know the
rest follows it feels good
to trust the

flow of life without fear it feels good
to feel the feeling
to be able to

imagine
if only just an inkling

a version of myself that
is free from the resistance

i currently endure

to be able to imagine that
version to know that
a version of me exists where the pains of
the present

no longer exist i know that
the pains of the present

can never last forever and i will
always let the thought go
and start obsessing over something else

hopefully
god

it feels good to know this to
be unpacking it feels good to be allowed to
unpack to do the work
of releasing the
resistance

to remember who i am
to remember i am a signal a

feeling i am nothing
but a feeling and i am
the only one

who
feels
it

it feels good to do the work
to focuson the work
in t

the here and now i am focused onthe
here and now i
how

how i feel in this
here and nw

now who i am
in this here and now

not who i was
when i saw myself

see myself now
in hindsight
as oh

i was my best then

but i am
my best in this here and now

i am my best in this
here and now and i am celebrating
this fact

i am looking for reasons

to love myself to send the
signal of love and remember that
all that matters is love to remembe that

that i get to let go of all of the
rest i love that i know that t
e

the rest doesn’t matter
and that i have the gree

freedom to love i love
feeling at ease in my life i love the power
to feel at ease in my life

i love that i can imagine a version
of myself that is at ease
i can see a version of myself that
is at ease and i am
feeling more and more at ease

all the time i love that
i know i can always

allow that version of myself
to show and through time

with practice that is who i
allow myself to become

i match the vibration
of my highest self
and that is all i could

ever hope to do i love that i am

brave enough to trust the energy
i am brave enough tot rust

trust he energy of this here and now

to choose the thought patterns
i want to choose the power

of life i am brave enough to
choose the power of life and remember that
i am the one who gets to make the choice

i love that this work
helps me remember that i love
coming into my power

i love the feeling of knowing that
i am the one who gets to choose
and then just let it go i know

i know it can only reflect me
i know i can

just look for what i want to see
i love that i get to choose the feeling i love
that i get to choose the feeling
and that’s it
i love that i get to choose
and then just feeling that

feeling over and over and it comes
just choose instead

of wondering

just choose

never
wonder

never wonder because life
is always there and i am looking

for the clues i am looking for
abundance today i am
looking for the clues i am

doing this work
the only work the god work and knowing
that god is right there

with me

excitedly creating
whatever i want to see
and i love that i know this
i love that i get to choose

i love that i get to choose
i love that
i get to choose i love that
i know i love that i know
i love that i know

because i get to choose
and i love the

better
it gets i love that i am
remembering who i am i love
rememberig wh

who i am and

being braven enoug

enough and focused enough
to choose the version i prefer
and taht’s all

all it ever is
choose
with
confidence

the version
which you
prefer

create it

i created it thank you
i know this nnow and

and now i a mallowing
myself to see that i am
already there

thank you

i love feeling the effects of the
practice i love the feeling of
letting go i love the better it gets i love
that i get to look for what

i want to see i love
feeling at ease i love that i have the
power
to feel at ease and trust life

this morning i got up to put
some mail in the box to go out and i could
feel that i felt
an

overwhelming amount of fear

about the day
and i don’t know why i have no
real idea why

afraid of the uncertainty
i suppose i don’t know
afraid to get going

afraid to try
to have a good day afraid

of the day

what the hell is that
like terrified like
i almost couldn’t stay awake

but what am i so
afraid of

i wish i could crackt hat spe

that spell

tomorrow i intend to
wake up feeling safe intend to wake up
feeling at home

excited to enjoy the day
tomorrow i intend to wake up
feeling excited to enjoy
the day
not

afraid of the day

what am i in a constant
state of fear about

??????

i love that i know life
is meant to be realxing

relaxing i love that i know
i can always get to this

relaxed state of being
its’ always
there

the realx

relaxed state

is the perpetual state
and the excited state
is not

and i can always come back to
center to the relaxed state and i
can always trust the day
and t

because the day is god and
god is always trying to give me life

god is
always giving me

life

giving me life
i don’t have to

do anything to get it
to pull it in

i don’t have to do
anything to pull it in

it’s already there and i know
i already have the teeth

i already have the teeth
and they show themselves when i lift
the veil

it’s the solution its the solution
itsl a

its already thre i

the version of
em already

already exists i love that i know that
and i love that forma

from a relaxed state of mind

i can create anything
and today i was reminded

of the power of visualization
and i realized that ican c

can choose to think about

picture in my minds eye

whatever i want and i’d been choosing
to fantasize about things
i don’t want instead of what i do

andi can see myself as i want to see
myself i can choose
to think about

fantasize about what i want

tomorro wi inte

tomorrow i intend to wkae
wake up feeling

relief

relieved to know that
god is taking care of me
today relieved to know that life
loves me today and that
life is going to give me everything
i need today

relieved to let everything
else go and live like i am already dead

relieved to feel excited about life

wear the veil

wear the veil of the mortals
that’s what i do
i

for some reason
i pretend to be human

why?

why must i pretend when
i know i am
god and i know i have the
teeth and they show

themselves when i lift the
veil when i lift
the veil of

the illusion
of

reality i know that the teeth
are already there and this
work helps me dot hat i

i’m so grateful for what
i have in my life right now
so grateful i have the
best life so grateful for my wife
and our castle and our

pets so grateful for our pets
so grateful for our pets

for our good life so grateful
for everything i have right now so grateful
for everything i already have

so grateful for
aewsome

awesome clients that pay
right away
so

grateful

for live giving me everything
i need so grateful for the chance to do
good work so grateful
forthe

the fact that life loves me
to be around people i respect to
get to do cool things
to teach

to co-create

it feels good to feel empowered enough
to trust the now to trust the
feeling of life it feels good to
feel good enough to trust life

it feels good to let
all the contrast go
let go of all the resistance
and

untrue thoughts it eels g
feels good to let them go to h

get the space to be aware it
feels good to dthe work
every day

i’ve noticed that if
i focus on relaxing
every time i notice a shortness of
breath
it helps and with

practice it is easier to
relax and
i’ve been counting
backwards

from 100
to relax

and i keep having this nagging
that i have to

figure out
what i’m afraid of
or what is so stressful
because it just baffles me
that i can feel afraid allt he time
and not know why

just know because of the way
my breath is tight
and i keeptrying
trying to figure it out
but

what i have to remember
is that i will never

figure it out

and it

isn’t anything but being
disconnected because when i’m

connected i know that i am
taken care of and then i am not
afraid i am
at ease

relaxed

i can choose to feel
relaxed about that i choose
to feel relaxed about that

i choose how i feel about that
i lovethe

the better it ges i love

i love that this

is my work this is the only

work i love

that i am
more ad more i’m not

afraid

to enjoy life

to take the big leap

say fuck it and enjoy life

that is the veil

what i’m afraid of
people seeing

people seeing me
enjoying life no matter what

becuase it

because it might
make them feel bad
or like

they are missing out
but really i can

lead i can show them
i can help them realize

that every one
is allowed to enjoy life

i don’t have to be afraid
to enjoy life i an

can take the big leap and
celebrate life in this
ehre and

here and now and when i a
m cele

celebrating life
nothing matters
and life celebrate4s me

and doing
this work helps me rememeber
my only job
is to celebrate life

even just a small motion towards
devoting myself to

a single point of focus this morning
evolved into a day full of magick
the magick just keeps on lfow

flowing and if eel tfeel
the feel the divine buzz

i feel the divine buzz i feel
the divine buzz i like

the smell of
educational
institutions

like old books
and hot professors’
pussies

i like the smell
of poetry
the paper

the classroom
the smell of the plastic chairs
and the

graphite

old sneakers and old
ideas but then also
some new ones
to mix it up

the smell of old
ideas and new ones

mixing

marrying

i need to fix my desk

today feels really good so good
that i can almost feel myself
freaking out a little

but that happens
when the world

is moving so fast when
life is supporting me

it feels like
i’m afraid because like
i have to do something
to keep up

it can feel manic

like eeryth
everything is so great it makes me
feel manic like

i have to do it all right now
achieve it all right now

there is so much i am
excited about and i want to do
it all

right now

and that is a good feeling
scary but without
the brkes

brakes on

without the brakes

fear
is just
excitement

so i can allow myself to feel
excited about the magnificent manner
in which my life is unfolding

calmly blissful
in knowing that it all gets

created

it all comes through at
the right time and when
that now comes

i will know it i can trust
the nows

to tell me

i approve of myslef

myself
i

i can also feel something
else something else i want to bring to light
is that i can eee

feel that life is going well
and there is a part of mind
that is looking for something
to

pick at

my mind is always looking for
something to pick at

how can i

let that go

let that need to
destroy

go

it’s like things are awesome
and my mind just keeps on wanting
to look for something to make
out of nothing

and i know it’s my choice
f i

if i allow it
whatever i believe is true
andthis

this work hekps

helps me remember it
and then i make the choice
and i cont to

count and relax and allow
that version to be my truth
and it’s

very simple

the truth

is always love

the truth is always love
and i can always come back to cneter
center and remember that

all i can

i love that i know this
is my only work i love that i know
this is my only work

connecting is my only work
and the rest follows
and i am getting better and
better at sending the siganl

il ove feeling the power of me i love
feeling the effects of the practice

made mind blowing progress on our
project how to love me

out best work ever
and such a pleasure to work with caitlin

a true blessing

and then got a new client for web design!!

someone we admire and respect her work!!

it’s just so amazing the blessings that
are always pouring our way

it feels good feels good feels good
feels good to

feel good to do this work and
remember this

this

is the only work
this is the only love
and love is the answer
to all

my only job is to be devoted to
spirit in every single moment
and i feel the power of that devotion
i feel the power of that devotion
slipping into every aspect of my life i feel that
life is fun i feel invigorated by life

i feel good about life i feel
certain about life
i feel certain about life i feel
certain about the flow i feel
certain about the power of getting
out of the way and making the choice

i feel certain about the
power of this work i love
doing the work connecting to

spirit and disidentifying

with form

i am present i this
this hrea dn

and now

and i am connected

i have the energy that
creates worlds flowing
through me i have the
energy that creates
wrod

worlds flowing through me
nay

i am the energy that creates worlds
i am the energy that creates worldsa and

and i know my only job

is to count to connect with the hre

here and now and i’ts lal abo
all about the power of letting go
that is the powr the

willingness to let go of it
all to not care about

any of it that is the power
that is the power of the dedication to spirit
the cult of counting
means dedication to spirit
to the now to

self to the feeling of connected with spirit
and that’s

it feels good feels good to
connect to focus on the feeling
the feeling of connected and know
that that is

the only thing that matters
knowing that when i am connected
nothing can go wrog

last couple days i’ve been counting
in reverse from 100

and i ilove the
calming effect it has

the unwinidng
effect it has
and i love the feeling of
remembering that the
focus is all there is and the

focus on the numbers creates space
for the energy that creates worlds to flow

the belief in the power of
life the letting go of so many resistant thoughts
breathes new life into me

my only job is to count
my only focus is to count
my only job is to cnnect
connect with spirit

spirit
my only job is to let go
and allow the flow allow the flow

allow the flow allow the flow

i know that ia m the
the creator and i create with
the signal i send
and when
i am connected with spirit
i send the signal of spirit
so sprit

can flow

spirit
can express itself fully

so that’s why all that matters
is the flow

and that’ why i can
relax into the numbers that’s why i can let
go and trust the flow of everything

the magick of life and that’s why
my only job
is to count

and this work always helps
because it always helps me remember the
truth of who i am and it always hleps
me

let go of a little bit
of resistance
a little bit of false
belief

and it helps me send the
signal for what i appreciate in my life

so grateful for mom and mike
so grateful for caitlin and alexis

so grateful for our castle
and for good food
and for the wife

so grateful for games
and lemon water
and coffee and les mills
and pwny and linty

so grateful to be doing my best work

so gtratefu

grateul to

to be doing my best work

to feel connected to spirit
to feel connected to the
spirit the powre of
life

instead of cut off from it

i feel connected tothe power
the power of life i feel

enlivened by the pwoer of life

the work always works and i can
always get in the vortex
and then i know that the work
always wroks and

and i can always let go
let go of it all and ci

decide now to care

not to care

i love that the work always wroks
i love that i get to celebrate life

i love that life is good for me
i love

selling passive
digital items
i love snuggling witht eh

the wife i love that life
is good and i get to decide i love
remembering that ia m

the creator i love amking
making the work my number one focus
i love feeling invigorated by life
i love feeling good i love

that i get to celebrate life
right now i love that the work
awlays

always works the choice
to feel good always works

because all that matters
is how i feela nd i a

and i love doing the work
to feel good i love doing the wrok
e

work to enjoy this day to
thoguth
throw myself intot he flow
to take the big leap
and allowthe best

best of life to flow through me
i love

loving myself!!!!

i love the feeling of loving myself
and my life!!!

i love that life is good i love
that i know ti can

it can only reflect me i love
that i know

it can only reflect me
i love that i can always remember that i am
the one i

that gets to choose and if
i dn’t like

something i can just choose a different

version it feels good to dci

decide what i want to not
have to worry outside the now
and trust life completely

it feels good to trust
life completely

to remember that the work
always works and this is the only
work to feel

easy about life it feels good
to be here doing the work
i can do it can

do nothing
allow everything

ic an a
can allow everything
and i am allowed to

enjoy life and feel
free
knowing the wor alwa

always works

i know i don’t have
to do

a thing
change a thing

just relax intot he now
the now and allow

i am the magick of
my own life i am
the magick
of my own life
and

so grateful that i know
that i am the magick of my own life

i haven’t been counting much today
i lost track i lost it but then i guess
i haven’t

“needed” it
because life has been flowing and
that is on account of the counting
so that’s fucking awesome
life flows like that and i’ts

it’s important to remember that
all parts are equal and the flow
state isn’t better than the
ebb

the both are and both
aspects of life are integral
and meaningless

it feels good to be
able to feel good in all the states
it feels good to know that my life
is flowing as a result of the practice

we’ve made more already in
january than we have in many months in the past
and it is all just flowing
and flowing and
it
feels good to say yes thank you
to the gifts and know that they

come about as a result of the
energy and nothing else

not hard work
not striving

energy

belief

creative and
conscious creation

it feels good to feel
good about my creations it feels
good to feel good about
my creations to feel good
about my life to trust the flow
to know the flow and feel good about
who i am and the way my life

is unfolding it feels good to do the work
to connect to spirit

it feels good to feel the flow to take
the big leap inot the

the great abyss

and do it with confidence it feels
good to feel that the connection to spirit
is coming more easily to me to
practice knowing
i’ve let go of

the tightness the worry
the anxiety

i’ve let that go in lieu
of feeling how i want to feel feeling
the feeling of connection with spirit
and allowing

life to unfold i can feel that

when i say i want to see her
but i don’t and that’s why she

doesn’t write back

and it’s all just the energy and i love that
i am aware of this and i am aware of the energy
that i put out into the world and if i put the

energy of i love you
then that is what i get and

ultimately
it’s in my favor
to send you the

energy of

i love you because it helps me
otherwise

i feel bad

and how is that helping me??

so i send the signal of love
to all things all the things
and that is all i can do is say

i love you to this here and now i love
feeling the power of me i love

feeling the power of mei love
knowing that everything is vibration
and i love knowing that my only

job

is to let go of
everything

erase
it
don’t mind it

just
let it go
let all of that go
whatever

i am
holding on to

all of it
just go

i love doing the work i love
feeling motivated i love

wanting to do things
i love feeling the energy of life
flowing through mei love

being brave enough to
enjoy life

i am brave enough to
enjoy life in this
here and now

and i do this work
to feel connected to the spirit
that i am to remember who i am
to remember ia m

i am the observer

i do this work to rememberthat
i am creating everything
by way of vibration

to remember that it’s all me and
i am the one creating the simulation and this
work helps me remember that

every
damn day

and i feel connected in this
here and now and i do this work
to milk this feeling

to expand the feeling of
connected to self and god
and that is all that matters in life

i know
that

all that matters
is the feeling of connected to spirit
and the rest just comes as a result
so i do this work to

connect with spirit

and let go of the rest
let go of trying forever
and leave it in the past i love

that i am brave enough to enoy life

enjoy life in this
very moment

i’ve also been doing the counting in reverse from
100 method a lot

it’s very relaxing

i can feel that i want to count more
today and feel that feeling more

that feeling of nothing

that feeling of connected
but also nothing
that feeling of the
certainty of my own power

i love that i feel the
certainty of my own power

i feel connected
i feel connected

i’m not cut off
i’m connected i know that i am
connected to life i know that
i can trust the process of life i know

i can feel certain of my power

i feel certain of my power
i know that all that matters
is the creative energy that is

pouring forth from
me and allowing it to flow

i know that everything
will unfold perfectly in time
and there’s no

rush i know that life
is unfolding perfectly in time
and i trust the process of life
because i know

it can only ever reflect
me

i do this work to feel
connected with spirit
and that is the only work
when i am connected

i am connected and i know that
i don’t need

anything i know that life
provides i know that life provides and i have
the courage to feel prosperous
to let go of all worries and wonder

and focus on relaxing
in the

the here and now

and that is the only work
that is all i can ever do
is relax into the now
realx in

relax into the now
relax into the

the now

relax into the now relax into the
now and allow

and that is the only work that is
why this is the only work

connecting remembering who i am is the only
work and the rest just flows

i can just let that go
and make the choice

i can make the choice

and let go
of all the chatter surounding that

that topic and send the
clear strong signal of yes

and that’s all anything
ever is

is a signal

i love that it’s
massively flowing i love
waking up to orders i love
new subscribers!!

i love fulfilling orders
all day i love new consignment
accounts
i love new wholesale accounts!!

i love etsy orders!!
i love orders on our site i love
free downloads i love
going for a walk
i love that i love it here i love
waking up feeling happy i love

doing the work i love
all the people that sell our books

i love quimbys

i love gabe fowler i love
that we have plenty of bud

i love saving i love that
there is more than enough i love
making money every day i love

starting the year off right
i love that we have extra boxes
we can reuse i love that
susan hit me up i love that it comes to
me i love that everyone was

doing there shit today
i love doing the work i love that
tener

the energy is here now

i love the better it gets i love
that i can feel myself
relaxing and letting go i love that
the more i count the more i

relaxed i feel and the more
i relax

realize

everything is in my head

and i love
feeling the feeling of gratitude and
milking it i love that i am
feeling more and more brave more and
more brave enough to
let everything go and just

enjoy this moment
i know that thinking
about anythin ou

outside the moment
is not my job
my only job is to exits in th

exist in this here and now

i love feeling at home
in my power and remembering
i am the one who
gets to choose

i do this work to remember
i am the one
and only creator
and i never have to wonder because it
s
it’s only ever
me it’s only ever and it’s
already there the power is already
there i love that i am

learning how to let go and let
what is already there come
through and that is what the
counting helps me do

relax into the now and allow
i love the better it getrs i
gets i love that people
are already joining

the cult of counting i love
feeling inspiried i love
wanting to do my work i love

good ideas!!!

i love good ideas i love
working on the work
every single day i love
feeling good about life i love
that we get to do this project

i love that the workshop came to us

i ilove doing the work
this work and i love feeling

totally confident in

letting go and letting
go appear as the abundant

all sufficiency in my life
and affairs

it feels good to let go and
let go i love doing the work

i love that we are always doing
our best work i love that i’ve
been allowing myself to feel
good and feel the flow

trust the flow of lifei love
i loe doing
doing this work
andk onwin

knowing that
everything is
energy i love
the better it gets i love
that i feel

a part of life i love
feeling like life loves me i love
that i know life

loves me i love
that i get to do thi s

this work i love letting
go and feeling good

taking the big leap i love
that i get to celebrate life i love

that i know i love that i can
relax into the flow of life and
truly enjoy this here and now
i love

giving myself permission
to enjoy this here and now
to know thta

that this here and now is enough
and this moment is enough

i
am
enough

i am enough
this here and now is
enough the work

is enough it feels good to
relax to practice relaxing to make
it a point t not
to not worry and i know all
of this adds up i know

it makes a difference in my life
when i make the choice to feel good about life
to celebrate it to know the magick of life
and celebrate it and i liove that
i love that i’ve let that go i love
that i’ve let that go i love that
i can massage away
the
resistance and
allow myself to slip into the here and now

it feels good to feel the power of
me it feels good to feel the power of me
it feels good to feel the power of
me it feels good to feel the power of me

and allow it it feels good to feel the
power of me
and allow it

i love that i’m massaging
away ther er

the resistance
i am rele

releasing the grip
my solarplexis

has on everything
why?

why is it so tight

clenched?

i am unclenching

i am relaxed i am relaxed i am relaxed

and just doing the work to remember who i am
helps me unclench it feels good to
pracitce

doing the work to remember who i am
the the more i am able to remember who

who i am the more
the more at ease i am able to feel
in my life

i feel at ease in my life
and that is all that matters

i am grateful for this
hre

here and now and that’s all that
matters thank you for all the blessings that

are always coming my way
i am graciously allowing them

thank you

i am allowing the gifts to come my
way and i don’t have to justify anything

don’t have to make
anything happen and dn’t

don’t have to care about anything

i can just let go of all of it

let go of every single thing
i ever worried about and
connect with spirit

i know i am with spirit right now
i love that i can feel spirit funn

running through me i love that i get to make
the choice to

to feel good about
life to show up for life

to allow life

so grateful i know my only job
is to count and the rest

just falls
away so grateful i know that when i count
it flows

today my client told me she was paying me
$100 more than i expected

and my brother survived cancer
even though he was at
death’s door

and when i count

i feel better and i know that
there is nothing besides right now

when i count i remember it’s only
ever

going to be right now and the
rest just doesn’t matter

when i count the resistance
just

goes away

it feels like smoking some good
bud
or eating some good shrooms

the resistance just goes away
the

shit
you thought you cared about
just

drifts

drips

drips down the side of your
architecture like
a sharp icicle

melting

and then if you let
the icicle melt long enough
it starts to take your architecture
with it

the walls

the scaffolding the
bullshit you’ve built around
who you really are

the persona
the conditions
pretty soon if you let
the icicle melt long enough

spring comes

the ground upon which
you built your house
of bullshit

slips like sand
grain by grain
number by number

into the center of nothingness
into the pit of
dark matter that exists between
all the molecules of our lives

and then it is just you

a fresh plot

a luscious plot
a giving plot a

fertile plot from which you
can choose to build anything
and from this vantage point you
realize there was never any
reason
to build that house
from which the

icicles hung

no need to shut out the
truth of who you are
to keep the god out because you

are afraid or you’re trying
to fit yourself in a mold

buy a house
build a house

born
school
married
house
kids
work
old
die

be like everyone else
fit yourself into a box
work for the man
waste your life doing something
that you don’t love

something that doesn’t thrill you
to get money to pay for the

BULLSHIT HOUSE YOU’VE BUILT AROUND THE TRUTH

but when i count
the house melts
like grains of sand

and then all that’s left is me
and from that standpoint

anything is possible
without all constraints of
misbelief

without resistance

anything seems possible

without the seed of doubt
life feels fun and exciting

invigorating
mysterious

but always on my side and when i know
all i have to dois

is count to enjoy life
everything seems a lot easier
when i can allow myself

to just slip into the moment
and enjoy the beingness

of it

life seems a lot easier

let it all go and let
life fill int he blanks

and that is my power

my power is in allowing my
plot to grow
to flourish

without my intervention
not to protect my plot

my power

from itself

to force it deep inside
behind walls so
others don’t see it

and ridicule it

my power is in my allowing
my plot to grow to flourish

allowing my seeds
to rise toward the sun

allowing myself
the only true calling life

rising toward the sun

and when i build an
architecture of bullshit
around the truth

i can’t rise toward the
light because i

block it out

but when i count
the sand melts the house away and
soon there is a crack

and a sliver of sun gets into the
house and the house says

what who am i
no i am melting wtf who i am i

who are you without this house
around you you are no one!!

you are no one without a box
to fit yourself into!!

you will be nothing if i’m gone
better stop counting now
and rebuild me

rebuild me now so you can live
but don’t listen to the house

who listens to advice
from a house?!

listen to you
you are not the house
you are the plot of land
that the house
is built on

you are the earth
you are fertile earth
you are the energy of the
earth
you are the energy that

made
the
earth

that is you
not a damn house

and all the stress in your life
comes from trying to maintain the house

the facade

imagine the sense of freedom
that comes with every grain of
the house of sand slipping away
into nothing and then

no house
no worries

no architecture
nothing to uphold
no standards to meet

no expectations to fill

no house
no worries

no architecture
no worries

no lies
no expectation
of something outside of
you to make you feel
better

only the energy of the earth
only the soil
the rare
bare
dirty
energetic

potential

that is what you are
potential

not something that gets built and
then torn down

not something that
dies and then is born

you are

eternal
potential

and when you are able to
let the house of lies
slip away you are
able to fully feel the power
of that potential

the potential
to rise toward the sun
get the house
the fuck out of the way
and feel yourself

naturally

move toward the light

nothing is wrong
nothing is bad
you don’t have to protect yourself
from life

i don’t have to protect myself
from life i am one with life
i am one with life and i trust the
process i trust the

potential of this here and now
i trust the potential of
this

event horizon

underneath every
architecture of bullshit
is an event horizon

let all the beliefs go
all the negative shit you think about
people and situations

that is your house

resisting
that is a house
that is a wall
a box to climb into

and be comfortable

worry

is
a
house

a
jail

and it’s not my job
to tear down the house
it’s my job
to allow the
numbers to
take the house away with them

grain
by
grain

a prompt that says “when i tell myself my only job is to count it feels like”

or my mind replies

it feels like fear at first but also relief
and when i allow it to be my only job

then it really feels like relief

my job isn’t to breathe
my body does that on its own and my job isn’t to make
things happen

my job isn’t to sell books
my job isn’t to break legs to
get payments my job isn’t to

write books
my job isn’t to put on workshops
my job isn’t to

figure that out

my only job is to count

my only focus is on counting
and i can still feel some resistance to myself

when i tell myself that but i know
deep down this is the only real truth

that my only job is nothing
the only thing
i can ever do is nothing
that is why i am
doing this experiment

taking this leap so that i may learn by the
through the process of my own experimentation

this

experiment

these experiments

are my work
this work is my work

and my only job

is to count

to be brave enough to
let the rest go
get out of the way and just count

and i let myself do it for a week
because my mind

can comprehend that my mind
can wrap itself around that

as a project

if i just tell myself
right now

my only focus for the
rest of my life

is counting
the mind can’t quite get there
or it seems like too much or like
the mind

doesn’t even want to try

or if it’s for

my whole life

then i can always put it off
until tomorrow
but when i tell myself
i am doing a week long
experiment

the mind wants it more

since its for the sake of science
and not my own well being

because somehow to the mind
everything is more important
that one’s own well being

why?

and counting helps me
get to the bottom of that because when there is
counting there is space
and things

bubble to the top
an awareness bubbles to the top
when there is space to

be aware of it
and release it

it just evaporates into the numbers
and as the number rise
one by one like bubbles on
bubble bobble
so do the worries
and pains of life and just like that

pop

they are gone because the numbers
make space for them to float the numbers

give a lightness to the air
the make the problems not so

dense

counting is my only job and the more i
focus on it and the more i

talk about it
with you

with myself
the better it feels and then when i say

counting is my only job

i feel assured

i feel certain

i feel confident in the power of life
the flow of life and i feel the
feeling of knowing that

nothing else is my job
worrying

is
not
my
job

trying is not my job
looking for an old RV to buy
is not my job

client work is not
my job

and then a prompt that says

X IS NOT MY JOB

and then you make a list

of everything that isn’t your job

kind of like less fucks

mailing packages is not my job
making others happy is not my job
vibrating for others is not my job

design is not my job
writing books is not my job
collaborating is not my job

breathing

is not my job

my only job

is to count

the most subversive thing you can do is nothing

counting is my only job
my only job is counting and i am already feeling the
relief that comes along with it and i am

so ever grateful for the gifts that the universe
is constantly bestowing upon me

i love that i can live by example and by
way of living by example,

we help people

just by living and not being
afraid to live life by my own rules

i help people

and by knowing
that counting is my only job
and by doing

my only job

i help people
by doing this work for myslf

by lining up my own energy

by

exploring the depths of my
own self i help others

by exploring who i am
i help others

by exploring personal power and

experimenting
with personal power

i help others

i know that my only job
is to count and by

being brave enough to count
and only count

i help others and by
recording the process by talking
about the process by

examining the process
by examining the power of me
i help others

and that is my only job
i know that this work is my only job
i know that i get to help people

because i know the secret to life

i know my only job is to count
and the more i say it the more it feels like

relief

the more i feel excited about life
the more i feel the
energy of life flowing through me
and i feel

relieved and i know that
all i an ev er

can ever hope to feel is relief

and i feel excited

excited about knowing that i am
making space for life to flow through m

knowing that the work always works
the feeling always works and the feeling

comes from

singular focus
singular focus and letting go of the
rest

i love that life is good for me
i love that i am a money
magnet i love that i am

a money magnet i love that
i can always do the work this work
and that contin

counting is my only job i love celebrating this
knowledge feeling the feeling of coming
back to center

feeling the feeling that i feel
when i first wake up and i’m still in bed and so
cozy andhappy

happy with my wife without a care in the world
and allowing myself to bask
in the life that is good

that is how i feel before i fully

wake up and start worrying about things
every single thing

and then the shortness of breath kicks in
but not
i remember that counting is my only job and
when i let go and devote

mmys

myself to god
in any way possible
counting or whatever

then the dis ease

subsides
and the magick

increases

that is just
science

FACT

this is a fact
this is not a philosophy
or a theory

this is
FACT

and i can instantly feel the relief that comes
along with making the choice to allow myself a singular point
of focus

of letting myself off the hook for
having to make something happen
and just resign myself to

the cult of counting

it feels good to have a new project
something to jump into
a focus for the mind

a job for the mind
a new job for the mind to give it something
to do and maybe you say that is not ideal

but that is better than
the alternative

i can feel the feeling of me
and i am allowing myself the freedom
to count

for one week

my

only focus will be counting and that is
an experiment for this book and so
my mind is like ok

i have permission

to “do nothing”
because it is a means
to something

but really it’s just a way
of tricking the mind into shutting up

i have permission to
count i have permission to count
toi let

to let go of everything
and just count

to let go of

gossip
to let go of needing to leave
here to do the work

this is always the work
and it really doesn’t matter what

ehere

where i am because this is always
the work

my only job is to count my jonly jo

only job is to count and when i
allow myself this gift of counting
i instantly feel relieved

not only that

i instantly feel
empowered and sure of the power of
the counting
i know for sure that if i allow myself to focus

all my energy on counting
for one week

my life will be changed forever

i know this and i can allow it
i can allow myself to only count and

trust
what
happens

it’s not my job to
make anything
happen it’s not my job to make anything

ahppen
happen it’s only my jb t

job to count my only
job is to count

try it
you’ll like it

the most subversive thing you can do

is nothing

my only job
for one week is
to count and see what happens

my only job

for one week
is to count and see what happens

my only job is to count

none of those thoughts are my job
none of those actions are my job
and i know that they do themselves

when i count i feel free enough
to count

and i already know that my
life is changed just by giving myself
the
freedom to count

just by giving myself the
freedom to count and now i feel
good i feel good about myself and i feel
good about life

ia m grateful for

leftovers

thank you for this here and now
thank you for the knowledge that the miracles
are happening in this here and now thank

you for the contrast that helps
me say thank you

thank you for this place and
time to create to know

that i am the creator thank you
for giving me the power to create and to know
that i am creating it

as an experiment
to see what happens to

test the validity of my theory

to do the magick
to record the science that is
conscious creation

quantum
physics

science
not
philosophy
and that’s what magick does

it tracks god
records evidence of it

i love that i am aware
that i am the one creating everything
in my life and that it
is always my choice how i look at things
and the version i create

it’s always m choice what i look for and it’s
always my choice what i create i know that
i never have to wonder because i am
the one and only creator of my life

experience

i love that i always get what i want i love

so grateful we got to hang out
with mike and mom so grateful to get to play
games to get the vip treatment

so grateful for free mcdonalds
so grateful for patty melt sauce
so grateful for friends who give
us gifts so grateful to hang out tw
with family and get to play games

so grateful to
feel worthy of being loved
so grateful for warm weather
so grateufl to get to play

so grateful for client work!!

so grateful the work is flowing
so grateful for this moment
this time to do the spiritual
work so grateful for a ride!!!

so grateful for free beer
and quarter pounders

so grateful to feel better
to feel the flow flowing to

want to work so grateful to
feel at ease with who i am
and where i am in my life so grateful
grandpa showed an interest

so grateful to get to talk to him
so grateful for this house to live in
for free and to have a place for

andy to come stay so gratefu
the porch is fixed!~!]]\\

so grateful i know i can

always trust the here and now so grateful
i am a money magnet so grtel

i get to feel prosperous
in this here and now so grateful i
et to feel prosperous

i get to do the work so grateful
i get to do the work to feel
good in this here and now

so grateful i get to feel

good inthis
herea nd
and now so grateful i get to
feel good inthis here and

now i get to feel at ease and trust
the flow i love that i get to choose
to allow life to flow to me
and just smile

so grateful to get to hang out
to get to do our workout
to get all my work done in plenty of time

so grateful to want to do the work
so grateful the wife is happy so

grateufl i get to to chooe i get to
choose to be grateful andl et go
of the rest so

grateful andy got to hang out with friends
and he got to stay a couple extra dayts

so grateful for our new speaker!!

and dishes!!

so grateful for leftovers!
and ocps and donnettes
donettes

so grateful for english muffins so grateful
to feel at ease in life to feel inspired
to feel like

doing something

so grateful to feel good in my clotes
so grateful to
the wife for taking care of

so grateul to have my coffee
brought to me
so grateful to feel the power of

attention

so grateful i know

i get to choose grateful for the perspective
for the
life experience that teaches
so grateful nora liked her gift!!

so grateful so did rose
and andy and mom

so grateful everyone liked their gifts!!

so grateful the room is more

clean
than ever

so grateful this is our house

so grateful for

the power of

me
so grateful for pwny sitting on my ap

so grateful to do the work and
come back to center so gratefl

for cash!!!!!
and amazon gift cards!!
so grateful to
be talking to dad and laura

so grateufl ky

kyle lived

so grateful to do the work t
o choose to choose to celebrate life
and remember that

everything reflects me so grateful
to feel

confident enoug in life
to choose trat

gratitude
so grateful for everything ‘ve
been given so grateufl

i get to choose

to do the work and th work

always works i know that
i don’ thae to do anything
because the feeling is always there
so grateful to

be doing the wok myself
to be making valuable
vibration

moves

in my life and to feel t
e power of them so grateu
grateful life
teaches

so grateful i’ve let that go
so grateful to just smile

and let that go so grateful t
for the ocntrst

that creates

to know that someday
this will feel

distinctly

like an old
vibration so grateful i’ve
let go of th

the tightness and decided to
be loose about it

be loose about it

loosen up it feels good to
looen up

and allow anytihng to ahap

happen to let go and trust og
got to know that i’m not the
one doing it

to let go it
it feels good to smile and relax in this moment
it feels go

good to expand to fill the space to
finally

let it all go it feels good
to finally let it all good

to o the

do the work
to relax

and know that
relaxing

is my only job
feeling relaxed is my only job

feeling relief is my only job

it feels good to to the work
to feel relaxed to relax
into the knowingness of ho ia m

who i am and completely
let go and allow life to
come to me
to know that all ic an do

can do is let go

all i can ever do is
let go and allow life to flow
through me it feels good
to feelthe

the well being flwoing

flowing through me

anyway

back to my vortex

is what i always say

it feels good to feel
the connection with god and know nothing
else matters tocomp

completely let go to know that
i can do it to know that i

i’m not doing it
i’m not doing that is my job

just don’t worry
just don’t worry

just feel the feeling

feel how you would feel
if you knew

everything was going to go
that way you want it to

how would that feel?