a prompt that says “when i tell myself my only job is to count it feels like”
or my mind replies
it feels like fear at first but also relief
and when i allow it to be my only job
then it really feels like relief
my job isn’t to breathe
my body does that on its own and my job isn’t to make
things happen
my job isn’t to sell books
my job isn’t to break legs to
get payments my job isn’t to
write books
my job isn’t to put on workshops
my job isn’t to
figure that out
my only job is to count
my only focus is on counting
and i can still feel some resistance to myself
when i tell myself that but i know
deep down this is the only real truth
that my only job is nothing
the only thing
i can ever do is nothing
that is why i am
doing this experiment
taking this leap so that i may learn by the
through the process of my own experimentation
this
experiment
these experiments
are my work
this work is my work
and my only job
is to count
to be brave enough to
let the rest go
get out of the way and just count
and i let myself do it for a week
because my mind
can comprehend that my mind
can wrap itself around that
as a project
if i just tell myself
right now
my only focus for the
rest of my life
is counting
the mind can’t quite get there
or it seems like too much or like
the mind
doesn’t even want to try
or if it’s for
my whole life
then i can always put it off
until tomorrow
but when i tell myself
i am doing a week long
experiment
the mind wants it more
since its for the sake of science
and not my own well being
because somehow to the mind
everything is more important
that one’s own well being
why?
and counting helps me
get to the bottom of that because when there is
counting there is space
and things
bubble to the top
an awareness bubbles to the top
when there is space to
be aware of it
and release it
it just evaporates into the numbers
and as the number rise
one by one like bubbles on
bubble bobble
so do the worries
and pains of life and just like that
pop
they are gone because the numbers
make space for them to float the numbers
give a lightness to the air
the make the problems not so
dense
counting is my only job and the more i
focus on it and the more i
talk about it
with you
with myself
the better it feels and then when i say
counting is my only job
i feel assured
i feel certain
i feel confident in the power of life
the flow of life and i feel the
feeling of knowing that
nothing else is my job
worrying
is
not
my
job
trying is not my job
looking for an old RV to buy
is not my job
client work is not
my job
and then a prompt that says
X IS NOT MY JOB
and then you make a list
of everything that isn’t your job
kind of like less fucks
mailing packages is not my job
making others happy is not my job
vibrating for others is not my job
design is not my job
writing books is not my job
collaborating is not my job
breathing
is not my job
my only job
is to count
the most subversive thing you can do is nothing
counting is my only job
my only job is counting and i am already feeling the
relief that comes along with it and i am
so ever grateful for the gifts that the universe
is constantly bestowing upon me
i love that i can live by example and by
way of living by example,
we help people
just by living and not being
afraid to live life by my own rules
i help people
and by knowing
that counting is my only job
and by doing
my only job
i help people
by doing this work for myslf
by lining up my own energy
by
exploring the depths of my
own self i help others
by exploring who i am
i help others
by exploring personal power and
experimenting
with personal power
i help others
i know that my only job
is to count and by
being brave enough to count
and only count
i help others and by
recording the process by talking
about the process by
examining the process
by examining the power of me
i help others
and that is my only job
i know that this work is my only job
i know that i get to help people
because i know the secret to life
i know my only job is to count
and the more i say it the more it feels like
relief
the more i feel excited about life
the more i feel the
energy of life flowing through me
and i feel
relieved and i know that
all i an ev er
can ever hope to feel is relief
and i feel excited
excited about knowing that i am
making space for life to flow through m
knowing that the work always works
the feeling always works and the feeling
comes from
singular focus
singular focus and letting go of the
rest
i love that life is good for me
i love that i am a money
magnet i love that i am
a money magnet i love that
i can always do the work this work
and that contin
counting is my only job i love celebrating this
knowledge feeling the feeling of coming
back to center
feeling the feeling that i feel
when i first wake up and i’m still in bed and so
cozy andhappy
happy with my wife without a care in the world
and allowing myself to bask
in the life that is good
that is how i feel before i fully
wake up and start worrying about things
every single thing
and then the shortness of breath kicks in
but not
i remember that counting is my only job and
when i let go and devote
mmys
myself to god
in any way possible
counting or whatever
then the dis ease
subsides
and the magick
increases
that is just
science
FACT
this is a fact
this is not a philosophy
or a theory
this is
FACT