excited for a turning point in my life
for the contrast to
have pushed me so far
that i have no choice but to turn
within to turn toward god to turn
toward what i know and
i am devoted to
i feel good i feel good i feel good
and i know i don’t have to wonder i know
that the work
this work helps me
be ok with life no matter what happens
i can be ok with life no matter what
happens i can be ok with whatever happens
i love that i get to choose i love feeling
empowered by me i love feeling empowered by this day
i love feeling good in this day i love
feeling good in this day
i love feeling empowered by life doing the work
knowing it’s already cleaned up
and i
keep picturing
my brother
dying in that hospital bed
and i can’t get the image out of my head
that he actually died
right there
i can’t believe it
i just can’t believe it’s gone
and i keep
conjuring up that image for some reason
i keep going back to it
like i want to see it
i want to see it but i odn’t
don’t know why
i guess to honor him
to not forget
what he went through
to tell him i love him
i guess just to see him
because i miss him
and i can’t believe he’s gone
i can’t believe he died in front
of all of us
but i’m glad we were there
i’m glad we made it i ‘m glad
we made it in time
but i wish i would have gotten to say goodbye
but i’m kind of glad i didn’t see him
didn’t get to talk to him
didn’t have to see him
alive and then dead
in the same day
i’m grateful for a new outlook on life
for the contrast
that helps me focus
that helps me make my life new
i’m grateful for the contrast that helps me
for the connection with god
to know that nothing matters and it’s all just
for fun anyway
it feels good to know this it feels good to know it
feels good to do this work
when the contrast finally gets bad enough
that is when people turn within
and i know that i can use this
as a turning point in my life
i can use this contrast
to live my best life to
be grateful to be alive
and to
seize each day it feels good to
feel good in my life to celebrate the day
and make the choice to
be happy regardless of circumstances
and to love
regardless of
condition
it feels so good to make the choice to
do that it feels good to love
to make the choice to love for me
it feels good to be bakc
and connected with spirit
with the knowledge of life
it feels good to be back
connected to source
i feel the pain i feel the pain
and i am moving through it
i’m not forcing it down
i feel it i feel the pain
of my brother dying so young
the pain my parents must be feeling
the loss the
emptiness
the pain of missing him
the pain of being reminded of him
the pain that he’s not there
to reach out to anymore
the guilt of being relieved
that we aren’t going through that anymore
relieved he isn’t suffering anymore
and feeling guilty for that
i feel the pain of feeling guilty that
i didn’t do more to help him
even though i know i tried my best
there is still pain in knowing i could
have done more
feeling my way through that pain
and knowing that i can’t change the past
feeling the pain
my other brothers must be feeling
feeling the pain of dreading his
service
and through feeling that pain
i can work through it i can work through it
i am so grateful i have the tools i am so
grateful i have the tools to
cope with grief
pain despair
and i’m so grateful that i know i can
use this as a trning
turning mpint
point in my life
as the contrast pushes me toward
what i have been wanting for a long time
a reconnectoin with
with self
and when i choose to
turn toward god to feel the
god energy flowing through me
when i make the choice to do that
then i can feel
the same
no matter what
no fear no dread no regret
just the same
the same as god
and knowing that my existence doesn’t matter
and there’ snot
no reason to cling
to life
to what is
to anything i think should be
a certain way
i feel excited about this new phase of
my life feel excited to be back to god
back to self
devoted to the vortex
devoted to the work of spirit
because i want to
because i want to live
a spirit filled life
i want to live my best life
i want to live my
best life
and i know that this contrast is
helping me do that
so for that i am
grateful
i’m so grateful i have a good live
so grateufl life is
working out for me so grateufl iknow
so grateful i get to choose i get to
choose life in this here and now i get to
choose my best life in this here and now
i get ot feel good
i get to feel good i get to feel good i get to feel good
i get to feel
good i get to feel the feeling of me
i get ot feel
to feel god to know that i am god
that i am
the creator i know that i am the creator
i know that i am the creator and i never have to wonder
i can just relax into the flow of life
i can turn mmy att
attention toward what i want