ntohing
nothing helps really nothing helps
nothing
helps there’s absolutely
nothing i can do there’s nothing i can do
but just e just allow all i can do is allow ia
all i can do
is allow all i can
do is
i don’t even want to do this work
because i feel bad i feel bad
trying to feel good why should i get to feel good
why should i get to enjoy my life my blessings
my partner who i love why should i get all that
its not fair
for me to feel good when
others are suffering
but what good does my suffering do
my suffering doesn’t
make things better
my suffering doesn’t make things
better
it only adds to the pain
more pain doesn’t take away the pain
im’ ust
i’m just so mad
so fed up with life
like why
what is the point its pointless its dumb
i never really understood suicidal people before
like how could their life be that bad but
i now undersgtand that it’s probably
more just about being
fed up with everything
the pointlessness
the constantness
of the pain
one thing after another
like why what is the oint
we’re all going to die anyway
why not make it now
an
avoid all the inevitable pain
of the future
and for what
what is event h p
the point of trying to feel better
i guess becuase feeling bad sucks
and i know
it is optional
but it doesn’t feel optional
it feels
necessary
becuae i feel guilty
enjoying life
when others can’t
better not to feel at all i suppose
opt out
just sit beneath
the sea
beneath the see as i originally typed
at the lowest point
and just allow life
to flow over you
on top of you and
remain motionless
floating beneath the
bullshit
but whats the point