i love feeling the effects of the
practice i love the feeling of
letting go i love the better it gets i love
that i get to look for what
i want to see i love
feeling at ease i love that i have the
power
to feel at ease and trust life
this morning i got up to put
some mail in the box to go out and i could
feel that i felt
an
overwhelming amount of fear
about the day
and i don’t know why i have no
real idea why
afraid of the uncertainty
i suppose i don’t know
afraid to get going
afraid to try
to have a good day afraid
of the day
what the hell is that
like terrified like
i almost couldn’t stay awake
but what am i so
afraid of
i wish i could crackt hat spe
that spell
tomorrow i intend to
wake up feeling safe intend to wake up
feeling at home
excited to enjoy the day
tomorrow i intend to wake up
feeling excited to enjoy
the day
not
afraid of the day
what am i in a constant
state of fear about
??????
i love that i know life
is meant to be realxing
relaxing i love that i know
i can always get to this
relaxed state of being
its’ always
there
the realx
relaxed state
is the perpetual state
and the excited state
is not
and i can always come back to
center to the relaxed state and i
can always trust the day
and t
because the day is god and
god is always trying to give me life
god is
always giving me
life
giving me life
i don’t have to
do anything to get it
to pull it in
i don’t have to do
anything to pull it in
it’s already there and i know
i already have the teeth
i already have the teeth
and they show themselves when i lift
the veil
it’s the solution its the solution
itsl a
its already thre i
the version of
em already
already exists i love that i know that
and i love that forma
from a relaxed state of mind
i can create anything
and today i was reminded
of the power of visualization
and i realized that ican c
can choose to think about
picture in my minds eye
whatever i want and i’d been choosing
to fantasize about things
i don’t want instead of what i do
andi can see myself as i want to see
myself i can choose
to think about
fantasize about what i want
tomorro wi inte
tomorrow i intend to wkae
wake up feeling
relief
relieved to know that
god is taking care of me
today relieved to know that life
loves me today and that
life is going to give me everything
i need today
relieved to let everything
else go and live like i am already dead
relieved to feel excited about life
wear the veil
wear the veil of the mortals
that’s what i do
i
for some reason
i pretend to be human
why?
why must i pretend when
i know i am
god and i know i have the
teeth and they show
themselves when i lift the
veil when i lift
the veil of
the illusion
of
reality i know that the teeth
are already there and this
work helps me dot hat i
i’m so grateful for what
i have in my life right now
so grateful i have the
best life so grateful for my wife
and our castle and our
pets so grateful for our pets
so grateful for our pets
for our good life so grateful
for everything i have right now so grateful
for everything i already have
so grateful for
aewsome
awesome clients that pay
right away
so
grateful
for live giving me everything
i need so grateful for the chance to do
good work so grateful
forthe
the fact that life loves me
to be around people i respect to
get to do cool things
to teach
to co-create
it feels good to feel empowered enough
to trust the now to trust the
feeling of life it feels good to
feel good enough to trust life
it feels good to let
all the contrast go
let go of all the resistance
and
untrue thoughts it eels g
feels good to let them go to h
get the space to be aware it
feels good to dthe work
every day
i’ve noticed that if
i focus on relaxing
every time i notice a shortness of
breath
it helps and with
practice it is easier to
relax and
i’ve been counting
backwards
from 100
to relax
and i keep having this nagging
that i have to
figure out
what i’m afraid of
or what is so stressful
because it just baffles me
that i can feel afraid allt he time
and not know why
just know because of the way
my breath is tight
and i keeptrying
trying to figure it out
but
what i have to remember
is that i will never
figure it out
and it
isn’t anything but being
disconnected because when i’m
connected i know that i am
taken care of and then i am not
afraid i am
at ease
relaxed
i can choose to feel
relaxed about that i choose
to feel relaxed about that
i choose how i feel about that
i lovethe
the better it ges i love
i love that this
is my work this is the only
work i love
that i am
more ad more i’m not
afraid
to enjoy life
to take the big leap
say fuck it and enjoy life
that is the veil
what i’m afraid of
people seeing
people seeing me
enjoying life no matter what
becuase it
because it might
make them feel bad
or like
they are missing out
but really i can
lead i can show them
i can help them realize
that every one
is allowed to enjoy life
i don’t have to be afraid
to enjoy life i an
can take the big leap and
celebrate life in this
ehre and
here and now and when i a
m cele
celebrating life
nothing matters
and life celebrate4s me
and doing
this work helps me rememeber
my only job
is to celebrate life