i love that i don’t have to ccare
that i can just focus on my own well being
my own happiness and ignore the actions of
others i can ignore it i can just
choose to feel good now
i don’t have to figure it out i don’t have to
figure it out
i don’t have to figure out why i care
just decide not to
becaue i feel like i’ve been wronged
and generally just annoyed
and i don’t like the person
but i feel like i’m still
forced to be friends with them or something
and i don’t want to
and that’s ok
there are plenty of peo[le i’m not friends with
and that’s ok
i don’t have to care
ab out how dumb or naive they are
i dont have to care about their
inexperience
or how much it annoys me
i certainly don’t hae
to devote any more energy toward
figuring out just how i would tell them
how wrong i am
i can just trun
turn my attention toward what i want
how pretentious they are
how far their heads are up their asses
but that’s not my problem
and i
am goig to let it go
i’ve already lete it
it go in favor of focusing on my own
well being i can turn the boat
turn the attention toward what i want
i want friends
who are on my level
jesus is it that much to ask
and i feel bad i feel bad not
liking someone
b ut i just don’t i don’t like them
they get on my nerves
that’s it lol
but it really doens’t matter
and i guess i’m even more annoyed that i am
devoting energy toward it
that my thoughts are on it
something so insignificant
so today i focus on feeling good
trusting my own gut
and if it’s not a match
it’s not and i accept that
i accept that
it’s not a match
and whatever happens happens
i accept that it’s not a match
ugh
why do i care????
why does it keep running in my head
because
i’s not their fault that they
don’t have the life experience to know
what they are doing?
so i should feel bad for
cutting themout for
something they didn’t know they did wrong?
but it’s not my job to educate you
to raise you pu
to teach you
i’ve taught enough people
i;m done
i want to be around people who already know
that’s not too much to ask
and oh well it’s not like i hate you
i just don’t like you
you’er annoying
you’re face is annoying
your voice is annoying
your inability to cope in the real world
becuse you’re sheltered
is annoying
so am i say8ing all that about myself
and i wish i could just move o about thit
but i need to get in the vortex abot it
i wish i would
i am
in the vortex about it
and in the
vortex i don’t have to care
i focus on how i feel
and make the hcoice to
to feel good now and let the rest come
for a second i did like you
i thought you were cool
but it turns out your not
youre dumb lol
ugh and i hate myself for saying that
for thinking it
i wish i could like you
but i jut don’t i just don’t
i think your whole
persona
is bullshit
ugh this is so annyong
annoying to me
that i even care
i just turn the
turn toward something else
and let life come to me i vn all
can allow life tocome to come to me
and i don’t hae
havet o be afraid of wht might happen
i don’t feel a connetion
and that’s ok
i can trust that i can trust that
and jusg choose to feel good
feel good first
get i the in the vortex and then
get in the vortex and then
allow my heart to sing
look for reasons to say thank yo
look
for reasons to feel
good
and let the rest go
look for reasons to say thank you
look for reaons
to be i the in the vort4ex
and don’t worry about the reswt
don’t care
dont’ get mad
over something that doesn’t matter
just ignore it
and move on with my life
with my vortex
and that’s all i can do
i stand up for myself and my feelins
i’m proud of myself for
not getting sucked in
for doing me like i made a vow to do
to stick to doing me to doing what feels best
to me
and not just follow along with something
i don’t have to care
i can be in my vortex and still not
like someone lol
but
there’s something deeper there
that iw ant to get to
but i don’t want to keep didggin
picking at something
that just doesn’t matter
just let it go and find som3thing
esome
something else to htink about taht’s
the best i cand o
look for reaons to
reasons to feel good look for reasos
to feel good look for reasons to feel good
to love myself
to love me
all i can do is look for reasons to
celebrate my life look for reasons to celebrate my life
and let life come and go
easily through me today
i ntnend
to allow life to come and go
easily through me and i
won’t
i will
think about what iw ant
instead of what i don’t
and i know my powe r
is in my letting go
in my not caring and i really don’t care
i really don’t care
i really don’t
care
i care about how i feel and tha’ts
it and today i ake th
make the choice to look for what i want to see
to look for what i want to see
today i look for what iw ant
i let
i let the rest go and know
and celebrate that iknow l
that life can only reflect me
and i get to make the choice
to know it always feels better to love
andi can
just let that go