life is only that
and i know that i know the power of me
almost immediately after i am
able to change the make up of
my
soul
i see the make up of my world
change and i know that this
very simple practice can
create hurricanes
and can change the way families
behave and think of each other
and yes it can
cure cancer
this practice can cure cancer
and i know this because i know that life
is only an out picturing
of me
i can choose to let go
of the deep hurt
the longstanding
resentment
and i know the only person that
can do that
is me
the only person that
can let it go is me
and i know i know i know
that life is only showing me
who i am
and i know that i can make the choice to
let it go to elevate myself
beyond that long standing
hatred
and pain
i can let it go because it
is no mare and th
no mare and
no more and there’s
nothing i can do to change it
besides change the
energy and i know that
only life can cause me
to ask only life can show
me who i am and i know that
only i
can let it go i can let it go
i can let it go and themore i
the more i let it
go the better i feel the better i feel and i know that
i can always do the work
i can
i can admit to myself
that it’s only me
it’s only my
longstanding
resentment
but how?
how can i let go of the things
that i see
“happened to me”
how can i let go of
being mad?
how can i not be so mad
how can i let go
of
decades of anger
it’s like i am holding
on to it
becuase it’s who i am
and i don’t hav
wnat it to be who i am
any more i can let it go
i can let it go and i can
say
i forgive you
but i don’t want to
fortive
forgive i want to
place blame
and be mad because if i was to
forgive that would
mean you are not paying for
what a bad person you are
but then
who i am to make you pay
its not my business what you
do with your life and i no longer
have to care
i’ve decided to let go of
caring i’ve decided to transcend my dna
i’ve decided to be the
bigger person
to make the choice not to care again
that’s all i can do is
make the choice not to care
i’ve released you from
my life so that i can be free from
pain and hurt
so that i can let go of
all the longstanind hat
hate and resentment
how to let go of
hate and resentment??
how????????????????????????????????????????
how do i do it
when i’m still so mad
still so hurt
still so
MAD
i’m still so mad about all the
horrible things you did to me
and still do to me
i’m still mad about
all the times i tried to
forgive you
and you fucked me over again
and again
and again
and are just a horrible
and mean person
i just
don’t know how to let go
of all the pain
it’s like i’m holding on
to all the pain
because if i didn’t hold on to it
then it would somehow be making
allt he
horrible acts ok
and maybe i should just let go
of thinking they are horrible acts and maybe
i could just say
fuck it all
for my own health
maybe i can let it all go
i just wish i knew how
just laugh dude
just laugh dude
that’s how i can move on
and i know i have the power to recreate the past
and i know it’s only ever up to me
how i respond and i know that
through practice i can practice my
way away from those resentful feelings
because i know
my preference would be
to live harmoniously with my family
i know my wish
i know my preference would
be to be able to get along with my father
and iknow that he did a lot of things
because he didn’t
doesn’t
know who he is as a person
that he is insecure in his life
just like everyone else
trying to find
meaning and purpose in life
and i know that
everyone is just doing that
and i know that
i am the creator and if
i want it bad enough
i can change my past
i can change my perception
of the past and i can
change its affect on my
in the present if i want it
bad enough i can let it all go
and i do want it bad enough
because
what the hell is the point
of holding on to anger and resentment
and i know that if i can
let go
of long standing
resentment
i can change the
course of my life
of everyone’s life
i know that i can
transmute the energy
for everyone and i don’t have to
care
that is my power
is i don’t have to care
i love and accept myself
as i am
and i don’t have to be sorry for
that and if other people can’t
see that
if my dad never knew how special i was
if he chose drugs over me
then that was his loss
it’s not my fault and it
has ntohing t
nothing to do with
my validity as a person
it’s not my fault and it’s not my place
to be mad
it’s his life
not mine and it’s his problem
not mine
i have a life to lead and
if i carry this resentment
at least being aware of
it will help and the awareness
is the medicine
is the answer
awareness will help me
and the universe
will help me because i know
that when i ask
it is given
i can feel centered inthis
here andnow
this here and now
is all that matters
and in the
here and now
there is no room
for resentment
there’s nothing to resent in the now