i know its me i know

i know i’m the shit i know i’m hot in cleveland i know its only
ever me i knowt is in the air i know whatever i put in the ari is what happens i love that
i know this that i get ot have fun that i get to enjoy life i love that i get ot enjoy life i love that
i get to enjoy life i love

that ig et to have fun i love that i get to love myself
i love that ig et to feel the feeling of loving myself i know that my time
always comes

i knwo that i dont need it i know that i am

i dont anything i know that my cup is ful i know that my cup is full and im
so gratefl to do thiw rok

this work to know that my cup is already full

i have an abundance mind set i know its
only ever me i choose how i feel first
i knwo that life can only follow how i feel i knwo that life

can only follow how i feel i nkwo tis all m
by design i know i get to choose how i feel i love that
i get to choose to feel good today
i lovee that i get to choose to feel good today

i know i can do it

i can be the person i want to be i can tune to the energy i wnat to feel i can feel the eenrgy i want to be i can

be the version i prefer i can be it i am it i am the version i prefer

ehre and now i am doing the only work i do keep up with the only work
ia m the th

the only work
i am

i am i love i love i love her i love her and i try

to not love her?
i’m trying otnot
to love because im not sure if she loves me?

the same?

i get to choose to act that

walke the walk i get to choose to walk the walk to

i get to choose to allow lfie to come to me i get to cchoose to do the only work
the only work that matters the feeling wor i get to choose the feeling work
i a

i am the feeling work i get to remember who iam i am here remermbering who ia m
i am

here remembering who iam

and not looking outside of me
i know that the feeling iw ant to get outside of me

is here now is here insicde

inside of me i knwo that he
the feeling i seek is me the feeling is eek

i am the sourcce of that feeling that feeling comes from i
me it is me i love that i know this that i get to ccelebar

celebrate that ig et ot do this work theonlly work tha ti

no long have to seek i can just accept

i prefer the feeling of being love of
i miss the feeling of

being naive?

think
thiking it wa something it eas

thinking it was something it wasn’t or maybe iw ask making

what i wanted then and now i’m know

not maybe i’m too afraid to make the version i prefer

maype
maybe i’m not focused on the version i prefer
because i’m thinking too much about what i want dont want

im thinking i want ths ana di want you to give it to me and im
afraid i wont get it and ill feel bad becausee i wan

im thiking i can only feel bd when

good when i get this and i know that when
i feel i
a certain way
do i’m

so im trying to feel a ccee

certain way to get something when really the feeling is the ened

you can skp th

you can skip the thing and go right to the feeling i knwo that i can
dont need the feeling adn

the thing and the feeling i seek is here and no i dont
need the thing and the feeling i seek is here and ow i know the
feelin

the feeling i want is here with me now its me
i know the feeling i seek is me
i love that i know thi

im stuck im stucck i m studk

stuck

what is it that i think im not getting because i see
i’m getting a lot i know im getting a lot and ic an focus on the good parts

ot

not …

something made up that i think im not getting
what

the only thing ever missing is god

the only thing ever missig is god and i love that
i know this that i can come here and ndo this
and t

do this work and it always works i know this is the only work this is the only work this

is the only work

i know i am the feeling i know i

i have found the secret to life and can relax in the knowledge
that the activity of divine abundance is eter

eternally opertating in my life

i can return to cceenter

i am ceenter i am the flow i am the flow ia m
cetner
i am the flow i am center

i love that i know the feeling that i have the

vibrational bookmark i love that i know that its in the air
i know that its in the ari

but i just want more and more and more and its not enough t

it snot en

its never enough and i love hr so much that its never enough
its never enough and i just need more andm ore and more of her

that’s not ture

wehn i gt to come good attention it can last me haha

i know my time is coming i know it doesnt matter
i know its only i know this is the only
attention i know the only missing is gdo

theres a block there but that’s ok
there’s a something there but that’s ok

i can work thorugh it i know i can work it

through it i know its only me i know its

i love that i get to do this wor i love that i get to do this w

that i know this is the only work that i d

get to do ti it for me that ig et to do theo nly work
for me that i get to do the only work for m

i know this is theonly work i know this is the only work

and i love that i get to notice
i get to notice when

i know when i’m looking outsiide of me i know hwen
when i’m looking outside of me
i know when i’m looking outside ome

of me to feel good i knwo when im

i’m looking outside of me to feel good and that’s
i know that’s why i dont feel aligned bu

becauseeim looking to something else to make me feel good to make me
feel good and i knwo that t

that feeling is right here with me i know its must a magge

matter of i know its just a matter
of going within g

of remembering who and what i ma

so gratefult o be here to

doign this work thi

doing the only work to fele good i knwo the only thing ever missing is god

why am i here

to tune to tune back to the

vibrational bookmark to remember iam

i am the source to remember the upward spiral to remember it sonl

only me it only reflects me to remember i dont need
anything to remembber i am already full
i am

here wo
to

remember iam ti am the source to sayf uc yes i am the source

i love my block i love the feeling of family i love having fun
i love that i get to choose how i ffel

feel how i i love that ig et to choose to feel good to be h

happy i get to choose to be happy

i’m here to relesd er

releaase the feeling of lack
im here to releae the feeling of lack

i’m hre to release the feeling of alck

i’m here i’m here

to remember its only me
when i amke the
choice that’s what it is i ‘m here to remember that

to tune to le

to tune to that and not let it up

go i’m here to feel the fupward sprial
im here to feel goodim

ehre to feel good

i’m here to rememer who i am that i gt to choose and i never
have to wonder im here to remember who ia m

i love that i get to choose i love that
i get to choose how if eel i love that i
get to choose how i go thr

through live

i get to choose how i go through

god is lavish

unfailing abundance the rich omnipresent
substancce of the universe this all providing sourcce of infinite pre

prosperity is individualized as me
the reality of me

i know the poer of me i know the poer of eth

the w

switch i kno
i know the poer of the switch i know the

i love that i know the feeling i love that i get to
choose the power of me i love that
i get to feel good i love that i get to feel the feeling i love that i get to
feel good

get to feel the flow i love that i get to feel the felign
feeling here and now i love that i

get to foccus

i get to focus i get to co

focus on awareness get to rmember who ia m
get to remembe ri have the power

get to rememb eri get to enjoy life i love that i get to i love that
ii get to nejoy life

i love that i get to rn

enjoy life

i know its only the feeling i knwo i know

i know

its a feeling its a feeling i know its afeeling and i love that

get to choose it

i love that i get to feel good i love that i get to feel good

i love that i get to feel good i love that
i get to feel good i love that
i get to feel good

get to feel the flow get tof

feel the feeling i gt to feel the feeling i
get to feel the feeling

i get to feel the flow

the feeling i get to feel
the feeling i get to feel

the feeling i get to feel the feeling its a

easy to switch to the feeling

its easy to swithc to he
the fol wo
flow the
flow its easy to g

wi

jump into the lfow its easy to jump into the flow

i get to choose how i feel no matter what
i love that i know that iam he source i love that i know that
i am the source of the fooe

feeling of the love of the oneness il ove that i know i am the source

i love that i know i am the source i love that i know
i know ia

i am the source

i am the source ia m the source
i am the source i am the source

i am the source ia mthe the tsour
source the sourcce i am the source i am the source

i love that

i know the feeling i love that i get to feel good i love tkaing

takig the time making the time to do this work
and feel eeven
e

even better i love aming making the time to do it now i love
making the time to do it now i love making the time

to do it now i love making the time to do it

now i love making the time to do it now i love making
the time

i love that i get to feel good i love having a fmily

family i love lking it here i love not wanting to move
i love that i get to feel good i love

that i get to feel good

choosing to feel the feeling now
chooseing to do the only work here and now

here and now chooseing to

choosing to do the only work here and now choosing

to do the only work here and now and i love that i et to i love that
i get to take care of me first i love that i get to choose to take

care of the feeling to do the only work that matters

first so grateful to make the time to d t

to do the only work that matters

here and now

i love that i get to choose

god is

i’mon the bus ‘m enjoying life
i’m in the flow i’m on the bus

so gratfl to be on the bus
so grateful to feel the flow flowing through me
so grateful to feel the feeling to know the

truth to do the only work first

to relaly remember

to feel it for real to remember ia m the source
i a m the

the obserer
and i get to just observe

i get to remember my power i get to remember my power

i ge to keep my per

power right hree aiwth me

i get to feel the feeling i prefer and i get to feel it now

i get to feel the feeling i prefer and i get to feel it now

i get to feel the feeeling i prefer

i feel the feeling i prefer right now
and it feels good

i feel lthe feeling i prefer right now
and it feels good

i love that i know ia m the
i am the sourcce of oneness

i am the sourcce of oneness

i have the power i am the power ia m the power

i love that i get to choose i love that its in the
air i love that i know

that everything i put into th air i create

i know that i am the one and only creator i know that ia m the one
and only creator i know that i am the

i know the secret to life

i have found the secret to life and can relax in the knowledge that the
activity of divine abundance is eternally operating in my life

i simply have to be aware of the flow

the radiation of creative energy which is continuoulsy
easily and effortlessly pouring forth from my divine consciousness

the radiation of creative enerrgy which is continuoylsy
easily
and effortllessly pouring forth from my divine consciousness

i am now awre

i am now in the flow

i get to choose how i feel and i get to stand up for myself and
my own autonomy

i get to choose how i feel i

i have found the secret to life i have found the secre

i have found the secret to life and can relax in the knowledge
that the activity of divine abundance

is eternally operating in my life

i want to feel oo

good i want to have fun i want to f

party i want to feel the flow
flowing through me i want to

i know the work

i know the only work i iknow my mood is my work
i know how i feel s

is up to me i know what i look for is up to me i knwo that
what i lookf or is us

is up to me the way i feel about that is up to me
and so ia m here doing the work to trua

transmute it i know i can look for love i know ig et

i know its up to me how i lookt at it i know i’m looking to be mad instead of sad
i know i dont wnat to be sad so im looking for

for reasons to be mad

because im tired of being sad
im already tired of being sad

i know i get to choose i get to choose how i feel i get to choose how i look at it

i get to choose my mood ig et to choose my attitiue
i get

to choose awareness i get to choose presenc ei get to choose love i get to choose love i get t

to choose love in this here and now i love that i get to i love
that ig etto i lov ethat
i get to

i love that i get ti love that i get to
choose love th

here and now here and now

here and now

i get to choose how i feel i get to choose
center i get to choose center i get to choose the flow i get ti

to choose lavish abundance i get to choose the feeling oflavish

abbundance knowing that it alreayd is
i know that ita

it already is i know that i

it alreayd is i know i get to hcoose lavish abundace

i get to choose the feeling of it i get to choose teh feeling of aligmetn
of presence of allowig the feeling

and the flow to flow through me the feeling
and the flow to flow through me
i get to h

choose the feeling i get to choose teh feeling
i get to choose the feeling i get to choose teh
feeling i get to choose teh feeling

te feelling the feeling ig et to choose how if eel i g
tet

get to choose how i lookat it i get to choose teh feeling of me
i take care of me d

so that i can take care of others
i take care of me
and fill myself up fiirst

i know its only ever me and i never have to look outside of me
for antyhing i love that i know that

it’s only ever it only ever freld

reflects me so if i sont

dont see what i want
then that’s on me i kn

and i love that i knwo that i love that
i know that it’s up to me its

tup

up to me what i see its up to me
what i see its up to me what i se

it

its up to me what i see

i know its me i know its me i know itm

im trying tno not feel i
ha

ha!!

ha!

trying not to feel sad so replacing it with mad

but i can allow myself to feel sad i can allow myself to feel sad

i can allow it i can allow it i can i a

i can allow myself to feel and remember there’s nothing outside of me

there’s nothing outside of me i

its all me all of life only reflects me and i get to choose
love i get to choose love today i

i get to choose love today i get to choose love
i get tocchoose how i feel i

i get to choose hwa ti

what i look for i get to choose my attitude

i’m focused where i want to be i feel how i wnat to feel
and this work does it

nothing else nothing else outside of me is

isi going to get me aligned within

remembering who iam tht ti’s my choice to choose how i feel
instead of looking outide of me

become it then see it and i’m so glad i knwo i’m a

so glad i know i get to choose to be it frist i

i get to tak

become it first i get to be the world i want to see

i get to e

be the worl i want to see

so grateful for life so grate

so grateful that everything went smoothly
annd easily

so grateful life is always taking care of me
so grateful i get to get ti done for free

so grateful we can get there on the trian
so gra

grateful for free health care
so grateful for friends that care

so grateful for my wife

to be in the ouse with my wife
so grateful

to feel good now to feel good now

to choose to

to choose lavish
unfailing abundance

i choose i choose to focus on what i want to see
and if i think about what i do wnat i ask myself

what to i prefer so that then i can get it

and then when i ask

it’s not up to me

and i know ia m the mast of this

kwo

i know my power and i know i am the master of this and i’m
dong i

done prentending i’m not
i’m the mast ia m the mast e

i am the god ia m the god of presence i am the god alett

letting life comet o me i am the go of saying of it

saying how its going to go i am the go of letting go

iam dthe god of deciding how i would prefer to feel and feeling that instead

i am the master of it and i know its my power and i’m done pretending i dont know my poewr

feeling better

because the work wlasyw
always works the feelings always work taking

responsiblity

always always alays works

taking responsiblity always works
talking to myself wla

always workks

awareness alawys works cneterenigna lways workk

the magick alwas works

taking back my power always works
going to bed feeling good always works making the time to go do bed
be

feeling good always works
takeing

responsiblity for how i feel always works
not caring always works

zooming out always works

self awareness always works

looking at mysels like
damn

if someone else
was like this i would be so

grossed out

i get to live the version i get to

alk the walk i get to walk the walk

i love that i get to and it has tnohg
nothing to do with anyone sel
only me only center

only me only center

i want to be happy i want to have fun
i want to feel at ease

i want to feel the ease and flow of life
to remember to lighten up to feel love

that’s what i want to feel i want to love and feel loved
feel loved and happy i want to love and feel happy i can i know

release i know i can release the reset i know the truth of how i

who ia m i know the power of me i nkow the pi know i know the power of me i know the
poer

powero f me i know the power of me i
can look for wat

what i want to see i know that is the secret to everthngi
e

everything i know that is the secret to life and i’m not going to make it very
far with all this jealousy

i love that i knwo i love tha i ge tto let it go i love tha i g
et to do this wor i love tha i hve a reason i love tha i have a reasoin

i lov ethat i’m feeling better
i’m feeling better i lvme
i’m loving more i’m vf

feeling the love flow throgh e

i feel the truth flowing through me
i remember i get to choose i ek

keep doing the owrk and remembering the choice
the work works the journela

journaling works the honesty works the
self way

awareness works teh devotoin works the devotoiin works

tomorrow i remember who iam to

right now i remember who iamd na st

act accordingliy today i remember who ia m
today i remember who i am right now i remember who ia m

i remember the poweer of me i remember the poer of me i love tha ti knowt his ilove that
get to let the rest go i love that i no

i know

this is the only work

i know the secret to life and can relax in the knoweldge

knowledget hta t
that the activity of diine

divine abundance is eternally opertaing in my life

is imply have to e ware of the flow
the radiation fo

f c

of creative energy which is continuoylsy
easily and affot

effortlessly pouring from from my diving consciousness
i am now aware ia m now in the flow

i remember who iam !!

thank god!!

i rememberr who ia m thank god1!

that work awlasyw works !

the work wlasyw rosk the work always works!!

when only a couple days agao i was at my pinnacle!!

then
i started to slip and feel jealous
and catch feelings

instead of the flow and then it go worse and worse
until i couldnt break the momentum of the thought pattern

maybe if elt fu
guilgy too

myabe i let it get too good

it got to good
and i started looking to the manifestation

release the fantasy

and bless the moment bless everything that is
listen and say tahnk thank you

thank you for everything that is thank you for all the blessings in my live

life thank you for all the love and support ahnk y

thank you for all the love and support i feel in my life
thank you for the sense of family
tahnk

thank you for the sense of belonging

thank you thank you

thank you thank you thank kyou

thank you thank you thank you thank you

i can say thank you can just keep saying thank

thank you ican i j
can just keep saying thank you i can take care of me
i ca

i take responsilibyt for me for who ia m i take respoiinsiblty
for mei take

responsiblity for the version i ccreate i love that
i get to wake up feeling good no matter what i love tha t
i

i know the secret to life i love that i’m feeling good i love that i onw
its’ teh devotoin to f

the feeling that’a

taht’s

that’s the only thing to seek the
is the placeless place that

that’s the only thing to seek it

is the placeless place
and i’m so grateufl i kow this now i’m so grateful i kknow

i’m so grateful i know and i get to live here
and now in the infinite present

i know i know the secret to life and i know my poer
i love that i remember my power

that iam the source i love that i
remember i am the source

the work wlay

always wa

always works and i know its never not me i love that i now this
i love that i’m in the place of knowing i’m back ina pal

in a place of o

of knowing ilove that i know who

where iam right now where ia m right now
i love that i know here i wm

am right now that i getot
to feel the feeling right now that
i get to feel the feeling right now

i know the power of me
the power of the feeling i know for sure
that the feeling is all ther is

i know for sure eh

the feeling is all there is k

i know for sure the feeling is all ther is

i’m mad

i’m mad i’m so mad i’m so mad i’m mad

i’m sad i’m mad that i’m sad

i’m mad that i’m sad i’m mad that i’m sad

i’m mad that i care i’m mad that i care that i let myself care again
i’m mad i’m mad i showed my cards i’m mad

mad at myself for who iam i’m ad at my myself for who iam

i’m mad for caring

i’m sad no one cares i’m sad i’m alone
no matter what i’m alone and no one will ever fill it

i’m mad i feel left out im mad my wife loves someone else
more than me

i’m mad i care i’m mad i care i’m mad i put this much attention to it

i’m mad that i’m sad
i’m so mad at myself for feeling das

sad

for insecure and lonely
and

needy

i’m needy i’m sensitive

i’m lonely

i can’ believe i care

i can’t believe i care i’m mad i care i’m mad i care
i’m mad i let it happen again

when living here was so clean
and easy and now its messed up again

and i’m having to do shit i don’t have

want tod oand i know i know i never have to i

i know i know i know i ‘m looking for reasons to get mad
i know i’m fixagint i know

i kow i’m fixating
i kow

i know

i want to feel good i want to feel good

i wat to feel at ease i wat to feel
i want to feel the truth i want to feel the truth

i want to feel the truth i want to feel the truth

i know i don’t want to feel this way i know i don’t want to feel this way

i kno i know i know the
secret to life i know the secret to life and
can elax

relax in the knowledget that the activity of divine abundance is

eternally operating in my life
i simply have to be ware of the flow

the radiation of creative energy
which is continuoulsy

easily and effortlessly pouring froth from my divine consciousness

i am now aware i am now in the flow

i hate myself i hate that i’m like this i hate that i dont know how to sotp
i hate

being the one simping i hate being the one who cares

i hate the excuses

i hate the bullshit i hate the lack of integrity
i hate how far up somoene else’s ass youa r

you are

i hate the lies i hate the bullshit i hate

what isn’t being said

i hate that i care i hate that i’m looking i hate that i’m

not on top

i hate that i’m not on tpo
and i’m

i’m looking for others to blame

i hate

losing my pwoer i hate giving it warey
i hate that i giave it ware

that i ekep doing it that i ca

keep letting myself care but i guesst hat’s the work

that’s the work
noticing that i’m caring again that i’m doing it again
but she’s getting it all and i’m getting nothing

she’s getting it call and i’m getting

gaining nothing

nothing to gain i nve absolutely nothing to gain

the work works the wa

awareness works the awreness works the journaling works the honesty works the

feeling the

feeling the feelings works feeling the wfeelings works i’m

still mad but not as mad mad at

????

and then llolooking for easons

must be this
mad then th

not focused and then
the mind eats the first negative thing that coes in

into its vibraiton and i know tis up to me whr ei focus
and what i crate

tha

that is all there is the version i create the version i create
and i take the imt e
time to feel good nwo i ta

i take the ime tithe
the time to feel good now i take the time to feel godo nwo i

i take the tim to create the version i prefer

the work always works and tomorrow iw ant to wake up happy

tomororw i willwak

i will wake up happy and focused and i nthe flow
tomoorow i will focus

wake up focused within i will wake up in the flow

tomorrow iwill i w

will wake upas as god iw

i will go to sleep feeling the feeling

but as soon as i start thinking about it again
i get supper pissed like damn
give me a fucking chance jesus fucking christ racing to it like a fucking
teenager like fuck at least give me the change to

chance to do something but now
you fucking race to it like a fucking youngest child
like a fat kid trying to get the last piece of cake

like a fucking dog going for a treat

maybe if i get mad enough about it can

i can let it pass because i dont want to wake up
to a fight

i want to love i want to be happy

i want to want to love iw ant to want to love

to let go

why am i so mad why am i so mad
because you’re hogging it and not even thinking about me
you’re hogging it you’re taking all of it and nothing leaving any for me

you’re taking away from me you’re taking something from me

you’re taking something from me

lack
lack mindset lack mindset

patheticc maindset

for real

who wants to be around that no one and that is not the perosn i am

that’s not how i’m trying to live
that’s not how i’m trying to live

i now

i know this i nwo thia
i know this i’m

not going to let it happen gin
i’m not going to let it happen again

i am now aware i am now in he flow
i am now awre ia m now in he flow

i love that i get to feel good

i get to feel i get to be the source ad
and nothing else matters i don thave to decide now

all i can do right now is be

all i can do right now is be i can always be
here and now i can always be
i this here and now i can always

just be

just allow life to flow through me
and be open and be open

i get to choose who i am
i get to choose how i feel right now
and i now that

its not dependant on anything

i kow the secret to life
i know i am god i know i gt to feel good

here and now i get to feel good

here and now i get to feel good
here and now

i get to feel good here and now i get to
feel good here and now i get to feel good

here and now i get to feel good here and now

i love that i ccan w

easily let it go and welsoem
the next pahse

i love that i don’ thave
to care i love that i ge tto o this work
the only work

i love the better it gets

this is the only work this is the only work
and i know this i know that this is the only work

and this is my only focus here and now
my only focus here and now is cleaning up my own vibration

which has to do with

caring
attachment
looking outside of me

caring what happens

thinking i have anything to gain or lose
and i know that i have nothing to gain or lose
in any moment i kno w

that i can be aware now i can be aware now
and then nothing else mattes
th

matters

that’s not my sourcce that’s not my woruse
sourcce that’s not my source

i love that i know this is the only work
il ove that i can feel the u

feeling under there
under all the caring

under all the blaming under

all the projecting

i can feel the feeling under there
i cana ffeel the

the freedom of the feeling of feeling
good i can feelt he

the freedom of feeling good

i can feel the freedom of feeling
good i can feel the freedom of

feeling good i can feel the feeling
i can feel the feeling i can feel the

freedom of feeling good i can

feel the eeling of feeling good i can

the work always wors

works and i remember who i am i remember the feeling of god
of god of letting it all go

i remember the feeling of letting it all go

i know the feeling of letting it all go
i know the feeling of releae i know the feeling of the god lifting

i know the feeling ofme i know the feeling of my power

i know
i see the evidence of a repeaset

repeated pattern in me

and i love that i can address it now i love
that i get to address it now i love that i
get to address it now i love that i get to address it now

i remembered who ia m

i know i am aware i am aware of the pattern i am

aware of the pattern i am aware of the pattern
i now the

i know the power of me i know the power of me i kno wthe
power of me i know the power of me i love that
i get to i love that i get to chosoe how i feel i love that
i get to choose how i feel i

love that i get to choose how i feel i love that
i get to choose how i feel i love that i know who i am

i love that i’m not afraid to live in
integrity

i love that i’m not afraidd to life in integrity

i lve that i get to vhoose

i love that i get to cchoose who i am i love that
i get to chosoe

how i feel i love that i am aware i al

i love that iam aware

that i’m not a simp lol

stop simping now stop simping now

i love that i know who i am
and i can always trust the feeling of me i love that
i know ho

who i am and i can always trust the feeling here and now

i love that i know how

who ia m and i can always

trust teh feeling here and now i love that i know
who i am i love that i know who ia m

i love that i know i am god
and i get to decide how i feel

i get to decide the version

stop simping now stop simping onw

i love that i now i love that i know
that i get

can just let go now

after so many times so so so so many times

i know its me its only ever been me

thank you thank you for the knowledge

so grateful to know so
grateful to gt to love to get to love

to get to love
to
get to love to get to love myself
like my life depends on it

so grateful for te to

the tools so grateful for the tools
the tools

i know the feeling and the feeling
i the only tool

i am brave enough to slip back inot the feeling i am
braven enough to feel the release
i am

i am brave enough to feel the release
i feel the release i feel the power of me
of being me i feel the power of being me

i feel thep ower to not simp
to simp only for myself

simp for myself
wow
what a concept

i love that i get to love myself
i love that i get to choose myself
first i love that i get to choose

myself first