talking to myself (god)

i can feel that there is
this part of me that feels like

not enough
i can sense it and i can sense that
my mind keeps

wanting to land there
my mind keeps wanting to
go back there like

yes but

yes
all these great things are happening
but what about the things that are not
and i insist on getting hung up on them
but i know

they don’t matter
i can feel the feeling of wanting to
mine my reality for evidence
of why

i’m not enough
but i can also sense a sense of calm
knowing that knows that those thoughts
aren’t true and that i don’t have to focus on them

create them

i keep thinking but
this person didn’t buy
so our work must not be good enough
or our wholesale system is not
god enough and i can
feel that i am basing my worth

on sales and i can also feel
the other side of the wave that says

you can’t base your worth on
other people’s opinion of you
or how much you sell
or

who buys and who doesn’t and i can
feel a dissonance in my vibration about that
but i can also feel the
calm that comes along with

not caring what anyone else
does

or buys

or doesn’t buy

and i can feel the freedom that comes
along with that along with knowing that
i am always doing my best and that’s

all i can ever do and i can’t
spend time wondering

if people like me or
if i am good enough and that is
how i will be

successful

in my own mind
is by making the work i want to make
without taking anyone

else’s

opinion

into consideration

i can feel the calm bliss of the other side of
the wave and i do this work

to talk to myself about it
to talk to god about it
because god is always there

ALWAYS

fully there to listen to my ‘problems’

and offer solutions and i know that the
solutions

i feel good about myself and that feels good
and i can feel this part of me that’s like

no matter how good you feel about yourself
there’s always going to be this evidence that your
not good enough
there’s always going to be this

stain

there’s a stain that you have
to

get out

and the point is you’ll never
get

the stain out

you’ll just keep
pushing it deeper and
deeper into the
fabric of your soul so

get a new shirt.

and it annoys me that this
is even in my vibrational craw

but i can also feel that i am
doing the work to

massage it out
and that feels good it feels good
to remember i am not a victim
and that everything that is

just is

i can’t make anything
happen i can’t make anything happen

i can only make myself in this
here and now i can only
make

my vibration in this here and now
and i know that’s all there is and when i
do the vibrational work

the rest just come together

and it feels good to focus on
what is going well and not even care about the rest

to choose the version i prefer
and feel confident

about it’s unfolding

choose the version i prefer
and align myself with it

i know that’s all that matters
and it’s not about trying to align myself so

something will happen its about aligning
myself so i feel aligned so i feel

complete whole
infinite and not worried

not questioning
why is the way i don’t want it to be

and that is the answer turn my attention
away from what i don’t want and align my

energy with what is enough

i’m aligning my energy and i know that
i am enough i can let that go now i can

let that go now and i’m doing it

to feel good not to make something happen
but eca

becuase i wnat

i want to feel good and i can
feel that life is flowing to me
and through me i can feel that life
is flowing to me and through me and

it’s that feelig that i
that i want to align with the

feelig of y

feeling of yes i am not afraid
to send the siganl

of yes of yes thank you of yes thank you
of knowing that life loves me of knowing
that it always comes

i can choose that feeling

no matter what and celebrate how far i’ve come

i can celebrate how far i’ve come

i choose to let that go
i come here to talk to myself to let that go
to know it’s all in the air and it’s not

physical

nothing is physical

it’s all vibrational and i know this
i am brave enough to act as if

to live my life by this truth i know
everything is vibrational and i can

feel that i am sending a vibration of love
and that’s all i can do

is love choose to love t

choose to feel god within me
and know that it’s enough

say yes thank you to everything that is
and allow the rest to flow

to know that everything is perfect as it
is and know that i am

allowed to ascend

i don’t have to hold myself back i can
just love i can just send the signal of love
i know
that

that’s all i can do
first you become it and then you seeit and th

this work always works

this wr

work always helps me remember who i am
remember that i don’t have to care

and when i do care

i push it was

away i can feel that i care
if something happens and the secret to life

is to not care

because it really doesn’t matter

no matter what happens

i don’ thave to care
i caon

can only be me and do what i feel
is best in my heart

and then the rest takes care of itself

i am doing my best i am doing the work
i am doing the work
and that’s all that matters

this feeling here and i can always come
back to this feeling of not caring what happens

of knowig that i am
taken care of in this right now and

knowing that i am working on the vibratoin
and that’s all that matters

today

i intend to choose the other side of the wave
and that’s all i can doo